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Revisiting Epiphany

When Epiphany was still simply Epiphany and not so easily confused with January 6th, I met my friend Sarah at the neighboring church she pastored. Near the start of 2021, we sat in her minister’s study and nibbled on star-shaped vanilla sugar cookies that she and her daughter had baked for the Christian holiday. We took off our masks to snack and spoke some about how we understood the journey of the three Wise Ones and the gifts they each presented to Jesus in Bethlehem. Then I told Sarah about a recent Taylor Swift song titled “Epiphany”, a haunting tribute to the mass trauma the pandemic ushered into U.S. hospitals. In it, Taylor croons: “But you dream of some epiphany/ Just one single glimpse of relief/ To make some sense of what you’ve seen.” Thanks to my Catholic upbringing, I have long been devoted to Epiphany. 

Epiphany is that farthest reach of the winter holiday season in the West; I have always thought of its as a the day when we can all breathe a sigh of relief and as Taylor promised, make some sense of what we had seen ourselves: the ready and natural juxtaposition the shadow and the light; the ringing out of the old, the heralding of the new. Later that same day in January 2021, I was at the grocery store stocking the shelves that had gone bare at home, when the chair of my church board unexpectedly called and asked if I was watching the news. No, I was not. Why? She told me about the insurrectionists storming the halls of Congress in Washington, DC. It made so little sense to me at the time, the death and the destruction, and of course, the desecration of our nation’s capitol. 

JWST, 2022. Photo credit: NASA, ESA, CSA, and STScl

It makes only marginally more sense to me today. I suspect most of us are still struggling to comprehend what happened to and in our country on Jan. 6th, 2021. My fairly immediate impulse was to make symbolic gesture of repair, so I ordered a couple of lawn sign from Braver Angels that read “Hold America Together”. A heart wrapped in stars and stripes was emblazoned on each, yet that flag seemed to resemble a bandage. When my signs arrived in the mail, I planted one on either side of our front walk, situated as bipartisan figures appearing to any motorists driving by us on Common Street. I intended to keep them up solely for the first 100 days of the new presidential administration, but then I changed my mind.

Early in January 2022, my friend Parisa told me that she felt the need to reclaim Epiphany from the tyranny of the 24/7 news cycle crowding that first week of the new calendar year. The year prior, the insurrectionists had desecrated a holiday every bit as much as they had a landmark. So I suggested that she and a couple of other minister friends of mine to come over to my house that Epiphany morning. Following Sarah’s lead, I put out star-shaped sugar cookies; this time, mine were covered in dark chocolate and studded with sugar pearls. All of us sat around a table in my back yard so we would not need to wear masks while we snacked on them. We would celebrate the religious holiday we knew from our upbringing and our ministering, the one we loved to preach about in midwinter. The whole time, those Braver Angel signs were still stuck in the frozen ground on my front lawn.

Whenever people mention Jan. 6th during the holiday season, I somehow assume that they too are devotees of Epiphany, that marvelous meaning-making epilogue to the Nativity. Who has been born where and for what purpose? The Magi are fearless in following a rising star that portends something heavenly and momentous. So last December, when the woman at my local coffee shop mentioned wanting to get to Jan. 6th, I smiled conspiratorially. “Oh,” I exclaimed, “Epiphany!” She suddenly looked quizzical. “What’s Epiphany?” she replied. She and I had entirely different calendars in mind. What is Epiphany? Only the direction all twelve days of Christmas point us toward each new year, I told myself.

Now I understand that I may be kept busy honoring and upholding the feast of Epiphany for several more years to come. Admittedly, it’s been a while since I’ve been at Three Kings’ Day dinner and had a cake with a baby doll baked into it. But I never forget the “yonder star” that we sing about in the classic Christmas carol, that “star of wonder, star of night, star with royal beauty bright”, the one that leads many of us onward even today. This January, at the start of 2023, my Braver Angels lawn signs remain in their habitual place. Before I left the house to join my husband for a Friday night dinner out, I quickly hung a star-shaped charm on my handbag, which I considered an important reminder to myself and others. After we came home that evening, I looked online for some featured photos from the James Webb Space Telescope, images of a few of our farthest known stars, gorgeous and awe-inspiring. Glancing over the Cosmic Cliffs and the Pillars of Creation, I marveled at them.

When my father-in-law was in the Intensive Care Unit this past fall, recovering from an awful automobile accident, he told his son and me that he hoped to survive his injures. One of his motivations was a deep desire to live long enough to see more of what the Webb telescope was already revealing to us: entire galaxies being born. Thankfully, he has since recovered. Eventually he was released from the hospital and took his latest copies of Scientific American home with him. We did not have those galactic photos last Epiphany, I realize, or the one prior. However timeless they might appear, these photographs were released rather recently. Of course I take the pictures as proof positive of the majestic benevolence of creation. Revelation is indeed ongoing, I assure myself. More good and more glory will be revealed to us in time.

When the Magi followed the Star of Bethlehem that “went ahead of them” to its stopping place, the Gospel of Matthew tells us, “they were overwhelmed with joy” by the sight of the child who had been born that night. By all indications, though, they arrive in Judea not a couple of hours or a couple of days or a couple of months after his birth, but a couple of years, plural. After the Magi make their gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh to Jesus, they are warned in a dream not to return home the obviously lengthy way they came. The gospel account in Matthew tells us that “they left for their country by another road” in order to avoid King Herod of Judea and his murderous rage. Shared wisdom was their guide to that necessary byway; it led to their eventual survival. After their departure from Bethlehem, Joseph is warned in another dream to take Mary and Jesus to Egypt. He does so by night, the gospel explains. We are never told about the stars he did or did not see then.

For millennia now, people around the globe world have been celebrating Epiphany. There are billions of us celebrating today, and I am rather glad to count myself in their number. Epiphany is not just a feast, or a special Sunday service — it is a whole season of its own, weeks and weeks of observance of how good intent might be made manifest in this world. Epiphany happens to begin on Jan. 6th, but it does not end then. Far from it. Since the start of the pandemic, since the tragedy of the insurrection in Washington, I crave its religious witness more than ever. What could be more fitting in our own epoch than this holiday which celebrates unveiling and unmasking? Indeed, all of us in America may need to return to our country by another road than the one that brought us here. We may each need to leave certain January days a bit humbler and a good deal wiser than when we came to them. We must keep our eyes open for any and all glimmers of light, scanning for those familiar shapes that stars take after they are born.

Peace by Peace

After I moved from New York to Massachusetts, I transferred my clinical license between the states. When my Massachusetts copy arrived in the mail, I was horrified. In addition to the letters after my name, in the background of the license appeared the seal of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts, which I had never before noticed. This seal depicts an Indigenous man in traditional garb standing underneath a hand grasping a sword, complete with the Latin motto that translates: “By the sword we seek peace, but peace only under liberty”. It reads like an inscription on an atrocious trophy. The very paper that my license was printed on seemed tainted. I put it a folder in the back of my filing cabinet, some place far out of sight, where it could not further contaminate anyone’s consciousness. Honestly, I do not even like having it in my home. I feel implicated by it. I am implicated by it. As a citizen of these United States, in particular an Anglo member of the dominant culture, I am the heir of conquerors. Some conquered using the sword, some using gunpowder, some even using small pox. How much peace can there be, I wonder, after centuries of genocide?

Earlier this year, the Commonwealth created a commission to create a new motto, seal, and state flag for Massachusetts; the nineteen members of the commission hope to propose those before the end of the year. It is social progress, undoubtedly, but it is long overdue. It marks our latest reckoning with our troubled past — in this country, in the New England region, and in this state. This month, for the first time ever and by executive decree, Boston will be celebrating Indigenous People’s Day instead of Columbus Day, the October holiday it has commemorated for decades. It is one of more 20 municipalities statewide to make this change. Within a couple of years, I expect, the change will be made statewide. The more people learn about the terrible exploits of Columbus, the more reluctant they will be to honor his memory or legacy.

Honor Indigenous Peoples’ Day!

The Unitarian Universalist congregation I serve as Senior Minister has officially commemorated Indigenous Peoples’ Day each October since 2012, since that was the year that the Unitarian Universalist Association of Congregations passed a resolution to repudiate the Doctrine of Discovery, a 15th-century manifesto that provided Europeans with the religious ideology that sanctioned their profiteering and imperialist drives toward expansion into the New World and its Americas. Overseas explorers were empowered to convert the heathen natives by any means necessary — but only after subduing them first. 

This summer, Canadian citizens were horrified by the discovery of the remains of hundred of indigenous children who had been buried on the grounds of mission boarding schools in mass and unmarked graves. Around the U.S., such mission boarding schools were operating throughout the 19th into the 20th centuries, a few of them funded by the institutional precursor to the Unitarian Universalist Association. One Unitarian mission school was opened in Montana in the 1880s, on the Crow reservation, and run by the Rev. Henry F. Bond. In correspondence, he shared his views that the Crow children who had been forcibly separated from their families and brought into his custody would “enter at once upon a life of usefulness, and… do credit to their training, and become zealous and successful laborers for the civilization of their race” and never “be… thrust back into a sea of barbarism with no career open to them, and no one to look after them.” The relish with which this clergyman assumed the proverbial White Man’s Burden is unmistakable — and appalling.

These days, people in my denomination are joining with interfaith networks across the Americas in undertaking a process of truth-telling and reconciliation. One such network released statement in July 2021 that acknowledged that “tribal communities have been testifying for years to the truth of forced removal, assimilation, abuse, and death perpetrated through boarding schools…. We also know that the trauma of this history lives on in the lives of people and communities, and all of us are affected.” It concluded: “Telling the truth is a critical step to healing… we know that a radical shift must occur in our own theologies as we seek to repudiate the Doctrine of Discovery and the way [that] has been used to justify colonialism, domination, slavery, and genocide of indigenous people.” This long weekend in October, we can all take part in making that spiritual shift ourselves. 

“And I saw that the sacred hoop of my people was one of many hoops that make one circle, wide as daylight and starlight… to shelter all the children of one mother and one father,” Black Elk of the Lakota tribe long ago told us, “and I saw that it was holy.” Can we see so many interlocking circles? Can we appreciate how enormous and inclusive they are? Can we revere them as holy? This year, my church has begun work on installing a permanent land acknowledgment marker on our church campus, acknowledging that our buildings and ground are located on the traditional territory of the Massachusett tribe. That is true and somehow entirely too easy for us to overlook.

Last summer, my husband and I moved to our new home in Watertown, MA and inherited a couple of big green recycling bins in our backyard emblazoned with the town seal. Watertown is located on the traditional territory of the Pequossette tribe and the seal makes reference to that fact. Admittedly, this town seal is much more benign than the one emblazoned on our state flag and also etched on to my clinical license. Watertown has a Latin motto of its own, but a kinder, gentler one: In pace condita, or “Founded in peace.” I told my husband that I had to question that historicity of that account and so we made a closer study of the claim. 

The motto underlines a pastoral scene containing what is no doubt an idealized encounter along the banks of the Charles River. In it, a Puritan man is offering a tribesman a hearty baked good in exchange for proffered bass no doubt fished from local waters; in the backdrop are other members of the Pequossette tribe standing in front of their teepees in stances signaling they are interested onlookers, with only friendly curiosity and no misgivings whatsoever. The scene portrays amiable commerce and equal exchange. My husband suggested that there might be some value in even having a revisionist history of the town founding, at least in its expression of a collective hope that things might have been fairly decent when they in all likelihood there were not. Perhaps?

Like many White kids in my generation, I grew up playing games of “Cowboys and Indians” with others in my neighborhood, and there was never any question among us about who were the good guys and who were the bad guys — about which was the preferred (and indeed, superior) identity. As schoolchildren, we use ethnic slurs like “Indian giver” in the most casual manner imaginable in public contexts where they went entirely unchallenged. That is a mortifying enough admission in its own right, but today I am doubly disturbed by the way that insult presented so blatant an inversion of reality. An Indian giver was supposedly someone who gave you something only to take it back. Think of the bitter irony of that. How many insidious lies were we raised with about our Indigenous siblings, how many derogatory caricatures? More than I care to catalogue now. Lately, I better comprehend how prone we are to confusing the victim and villain roles. School and national sports teams no longer making use of so-called “Native American” mascots is just one concession we can make to ending confusion about what constitutes savagery. 

As the U.S. Poet Laureate and Indigenous author Joy Harjo writes, “Remember you are all people and all people are you.” We have work to counter our strongest social conditioning, which in the U.S. valorizes and vindicates settler colonialism by White Europeans. In Boston, there was considerable upset among its residents that Indigenous People’s Day represented the undoing of Columbus Day. It did, yes. Yet how could it have been otherwise? We have to surrender our allegiance to the conquerers in order to challenge the demonic logic of conquest itself and join in solidarity with all the conquered. Unless we want that hand grasping a sword on the Massachusetts seal to be representative of our own, we have to renounce both the ideologies and practices that make us complicit with triumphant tales that would turn Indigenous Peoples into human trophies. Unless we want to become strangers to our highest selves, we have to become familiar with the traditional territories we inhabit; we have to understand how that ground was gained; we have to resist the mental, emotional, and spiritual legacies of colonialism; and we have to apprise what settler colonialism has cost us in terms of a shared humanity. Let us start to correct some of the errors of the past with Indigenous Peoples Day. Let us seek whatever peace can be made with our history this holiday. Let us begin in earnest today.